We need to talk about this. Like seriously. For the few guys who read here, look away now, I need to deal with lady issues right now.
It turns out I need to choose between my face and my body… now what would YOU choose?
So I went onto the pill in December after been on the injection for 4 years. I suffered no complications or side effects from the injection (although I used to blame my weight gain on it, we all know that that was a cover up) and was pretty happy to stay on it for the rest of my life… well until menopause at least. It was a 3 month jab, no period, no up and down emotions, no pre menstrual and post menstrual mood swings, no cramps, no moodiness, no moodiness, did I mention no moodiness? I felt fine all through the month. Like tip top fine. I’ve always maintained that the injection MUST be dangerous long term, I mean in effect it cuts out your cycle completely… something that your body by its very nature needs to produce – that can’t be good for you surely? I don’t know the scientific details, I’m just saying that to me the injection was never my first choice of contraception but after falling pregnant on the pill, all I wanted was something that was flop proof. Anyway, I digress. Point is, I was physically happy on the injection OK.
Then my skin broke out in the worst way… you guys have read all about my adult acne and how it really affected me in a bad way. Walking around with a pizza face at the age of 32 is not fun. I am not a person who pays much attention to my skin at all, mainly because I have never needed to. I don’t wear lots of makeup and I only started a serious skin care routine at the age of 30. So when this happened to me, I was highly conscious, my self esteem took a knock, I took to wearing thick foundation every day. I was unhappy. And this is really the MAIN reason I switched my contraception method.
So that’s the history.
Since being on the pill, I’ve had the worst periods. Like I feel like I want to call in sick and just stay in bed kinda sick. Please understand that having periods again after like 5 years was in itself a nightmare, but having a bad period with all the cramps and aches and pains has been HORRIFIC. Since being on the pill I spend about 3 weeks of the month feeling weird. Just out of sorts. I can pin this down to nothing else other than the pill as it literally started a month after going onto the pill. If it’s not my stomach that’s always crampy or bloated, my back is sore, if it’s not that I feel like I have an ulcer – weird burning stomach ache that’s not bad enough to take something for it, but it nags at me, and if its not THAT then I’m moody and irritable. This is not a fallacy people, women really and truly experience hormonal “episodes” that affect their moods. I think this pill is turning me into a crazy person. You know what I really feel like… I feel like those first few weeks after you’ve discovered you’re pregnant, where you still feel like you’re getting period cramps and you feel tired and you feel nauseous. That’s how I feel 3 weeks of the month! And no, I am not pregnant.
Now I do have options… one always has options. I can try a different pill – maybe this pill just doesn’t agree with me, right? Or I could go back on the injection. While this option is looking really appealing, I’m scared that my face will go back to pizza-dom if I go off the pill. I don’t want to mess with my face, it is looking too good to mess with.
But will I risk how I FEEL physically for how I LOOK physically? This is not a dumb question and it has nothing to do with looks (truenottrue)… but how you look obviously DOES affect how you feel, right? Right.
Or the husband could go for the snip, which he isn’t against, but planning the logistics with a person who doesn’t work in the city is quite difficult.
But I want to ask people on the pill… do you have side effects? Do you feel pre and post menstrual? Are you happy to spend daaaays of the month feeling out of sorts just because you’re a girl? I’m not happy with that! I just want to feel like my old self again!
Wow, it’s hard out here for a chick.
While this song as nothing to do with contraception, and the lyrics are questionable… I found a clean version for you because I still love its catchy little tune 🙂